Some posts ago I wrote about ‘a perfect life’ I would want. Well, that seems very hard coming. Well, 2010 is a new year and it seems to be telling me not to make a fuss over it, and lead a simple life. So, I have given up smoking from November(Yes again! and this time for good. I PROMISE), on a diet, doing some gardening, got myself two dogs, and most importantly I promise myself ‘no fucking around’ and by that I meant literally. Two days into the new year and I was already thinking what could be the reward I’ll get for leading a simple life. Day six into the new year I think I was rewarded handsomely, but of all the things it could have given me, 2010 decided to reward me with ‘a simple fuck’- young, good looking, no strings…. just good fuck. Did I take it? What can I say, my hands were tied, or should I say my libido was seriously challenged 
He came as a construction worker, asked to built a gate in two weeks time. Work nowadays means crisis management, for all the negative things possible is happening there nowadays (a good reason for not blogging often). I concentrated all my energy into overlooking that gate construction for I dare not think about the possibility of closing down my business. I even failed to notice how good looking he was, the effect of my leading a simple life? or may be just work pressure. A real mystery for I have never failed to notice a guy like him before, specially when I was closely working with him for over five days. But how long can his always uncovered biceps hide from my sight? How long can a cute smile of a twenty something guy on a chiseled manly body stay away from my eyes? But unlike before, this time it came all together at one go like a blast when he shook my hand and asked me if there was something wrong.
He was waiting for me that day at my house to discuss the final designs of the gate. I had asked him to bring it but forgotten all about it until my mom came inside my room and told me someone has been waiting for me. I didn’t see him when I came in but looking out from my room I saw him sitting in my lawn. It was a very bad day at work, worse than all the bad days I have had in the last few months. He must have noticed the stress, and had asked the question when I called him inside my room and shook his hand. I looked at him for the first time not as the construction worker but as a guy standing next to me, and then there was the BLAST triggered by his cute smile and his firm hands. “I’ll bring this tomorrow at work… you should rest now” he said and I agreed. With all the tensions at work, I was not in a mood to add the emotional trauma of guessing some good looking guy was straight or not.
From the next day he waited for me after work to meet me. The first day was to finalized the gate designs and the other days were just to update me about the work progress. By the third day I realized he just wanted to meet me! On the fourth day, he offered me a massage and started rubbing my neck. His construction tools harden hands were surprisingly soft, and I felt his breath on my neck. That is when he murmured how much he like me. I felt his hands on my torso and on my penis. Take a day off and let’s go to Sekmai (popular picnic spot near Imphal) to celebrate the New Year, let’s swim naked on Sekmai river- he told me. We could go to your place afterward and you can fuck me. Let’s have some fun.
I came home forgetting everything about work. It felt nice to be appreciated and being liked. But I text him soon after that I won’t be able to go on a picnic with him. The prospect of a gorgeous guy swimming naked with me and have fun sex seems like a fabulous reward, but I know that’s what I don’t want from life this year. I just want 2010 to give me simple rewards like seeing my family smiling, my garden blossoming, and my pet dogs wagging their tails on seeing me.
Happy New Year!
